I know what a Depression is. It’s when things look bad even when they may be good. I’m going to try to capture some of my mood on paper today, to ask you whether you share it, or whether I am personally grieving and projecting it on to my environment. Usually at this time of year I am very upbeat, because it’s spring. This year, even though I’m a Pollyanna, my feelings are very mixed. The flowers are beautiful, and the weather is glorious, but there are clouds on the horizon as well.
Let’s start with the small things. We put my daughter’s dog Kodie down last week. He got cancer and died in a week, and he was only four.
Buppy the Puppy has been down with an infection that wears him out to the point where, to make him eat, I have to feed him cans of sardines and tuna. He got scratched by a cat and it became cellulitis. He sleeps under the bed or under the table all day, and he hasn’t stolen my bra
and carried it into the yard since he got sick.
I’ve had a flu myself for more than a week, walking around at 50% energy level and feeling like Buppy.
My foster son has been laid off from his construction job because they ran out of work and he can’t find another one. His fiancee is upset because they are trying to save to get married. There are so many jobs he cannot get if he admits he was in prison, so I suggested he go to school full time, but he won’t do that because he wants to contribute to their household.
Now let’s branch out from my family to the world.
Yesterday Barack Obama threw his spiritual advisor under the bus after Rev. Wright’s 60’s style anger, still harbored after all these years, threatened to ruin the campaign of one of the truly inspirational leaders of the contemporary world. Obama might not be experienced, but he has the ability to inspire, strategize, and THINK. We need that. We need to get on the same page as a nation (without disregarding diversity, of course) and all row in the same direction before the boat sinks. And he has put himself out there, a black man, to test how far we’ve come in the last fifty years with regard to true diversity.
There are widespread food shortages around the world, too. This is making people contentious. Haiti is already having riots against the government.
President Bush is asking for the building of more oil refineries. And for drilling off Anwar. I’m hoping that before that happens, the price of alternative energy will equal the price of gas, and the entire issue of oil will be moot. Wouldn’t that be great? The problem solves itself.
How are you feeling about your life? About our nation’s life? If I get enough interesting comments, I will compile them into a totally unscientific poll and share them with you 🙂
Update: Just came back from Starbucks and found out that with my registered Starbucks card I get all my syrups free! This lowers my weekly Starbucks number by about $3.00. Things are looking up.